Trigger warning: talk of eating disorders
Counting and weighing is a great tool to understand portion sizes and to get an idea of what things should look like, especially on a bariatric plate! After two straight years of meticulously planning out my meals, sometimes up to a week in advance, I became obsessive about the numbers game (calories in vs calories out) and it eventually turned toxic. I fell victim to my ED and began restricting my food intake, which would drive me crazy and force me to binge, feel guilty about it and “get back on track” by going back into the same restrictive dieting habits of trying to stay within an allotted calorie or macro range. It was a disturbing and harmful trend that I could no longer maintain mentally.
And people say weight loss surgery is the easy way out.
April 16, 2017 was the last day I tracked my food. I am personally so much happier (AND STILL MAINTAINING) now that I focus on the quality of the foods I eat (what are it’s ingredients? How is it made?) rather than strictly quantity (how many calories are in this? What are the macro specs, etc.)
Let me clarify that I DO NOT think that meal planning and prepping, or calorie and macro counting is a toxic habit. It’s an absolutely fantastic way to stay on track and reach your individual goals! I’m sure that if I went back into meal prepping and calorie counting with the quality notion in mind, it’d be nothing but glorious success!! A new, bright approach on food and how it benefits my body! But. I don’t want to count calories and macros anymore.
I do a different kind of meal prep now by stocking my house with fresh, wholesome ingredients and finding something to do with them before the turn. Researching ways to make things from scratch because I want to be able to say, “I made that, I didn’t buy it.” Pizza dough, mayonnaise, salad dressings, seasoning spices, BAKED GOODS. I want to make it all and I want people to understand that FOOD IS FOOD. CALORIES ARE NOT THE ENEMY.
You can be healthy and eat your favourite comfort foods. You can eat muffins and still fit into your jeans. Be mindful about the foods you eat, the ingredients you use, read your labels, DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH. Become an informed consumer.
The truth is out there
Seriously though, this is just MY experience and while I’ve found this doesn’t work for me anymore, you need to do what’s best for you! There is no one size fits all solution. We’re all here to learn from each other!!
So let me know what you think! What’s your routine look like? Have you had a similar experience? I’d love to heard from you 💕